The rainy day bring me lasting tears

Yesterday, i was caught in the rain. Flagging for cab to fetch me.. Nothing much happens until the day getting dark.. I was so damn suffer from a very bad headache.. Things brought me into a lousy action.

Out of sudden, i felt isolated. Asking to be free from the feelings that keep on hunting me since April. HE knows the best.. What happen is, she acting the same as i did before.. She was so pleased with what he had done to me.. the way he care towards me.. It happens few years ago. He doing the same. He was so patient and so kind.. He willing to do the best to makes things better. He just did not have more patient anymore...

Only when she put me into greenlight, I decided to open up my heart. Yes, he is a good person.. start to like him until i did not know when, the relationship and friendship scratched and tear into very small pieces and no ones could put it back as what it suppose to be. Due to this, I did not want to project greenlight before I get to know him deeply. I did not want to break her heart whenever I found out the bad things bout him and suddenly rejecting him after she was totally in love. Never mind dear.. with ALLAH guidance, we'll find the best.

I just do not have the credibility to imply good strategies. What she did now, show me what exactly actions i should took when i was caught in this situation.

Its, me who ruins the relationship actually.. I was so in love with him and struggle myself to fix their relationship.. Never be together without her by my side.. She always spend much more times together than i did, still the plan didn't works well. I kept on making order to preserve a good friendship with her. and he just dun stop put me into dilemma. Its me who break it.. not her.. but until now, I kept on making her felt guilty for not blessing our relationship..

I knew, she might hurt. but things happen.. there is no way turning back..

I just dun want she felt the same.. I have decided to stop rejecting HIM... After ages thinking of it.. I would rather sacrifice my bad feelings so that I would be able to be there by her side and be the busiest person who handling and organizing the receptions during the solemnization.

Since u guys read my older post, I'm just too afraid to decide. I can't help of loosing her.. and would he be my soul mate? its a risky decision.. Dear, i love you both.. and never wanted to loose either of u. But I just let time pass by. to him, so far, u did well but not enough passion.. as i said.. if this is our destiny... the passion will leads us there. Now, things getting worst. I have tore the entire friendship they built.. This should not repeated again.. i wont let the history repeated itself while me this time just sitting there and be a director.

Until now, I've never heard bout him.. I keep on pushing myself not to think of this short love stories.. She blessed at first... the way they chatting together, spending time together, the way he treat her.. My heart was so full of joy and love.. I did not know when this friendship start cracking. As i realized, there is only a tiny crack bridge left in the middle. I try to fix it.. as I've been in the middle of the bridge, its cracking and fell down.. and I am the one who getting hurt.

Last night, I built up strong Principe swearing that I won't be the middle person who crack the relationship.. She was too good to be hurt and he was too patient and I dun want it to reach the limit..

Pernah ku rasa dendam derita
bermain cinta ku cuba jua
patah hati tak membuat menjadi cerah
biarlah hanyut badan ke laut
asal sebiduk dengan si dia
dalam badai asmara cinta

tak perlu engkau ambilkan pisau
tak perlu aku belah dadamu
kerana aku telah tahu isi hatimu
mata bertemu saling memandang
dalam hati rasa bergoncang
karna cinta jua nan datang

c/o
bila nasib belum beruntung
bintang dilangit jangan dihitung
sebelum sakit jangan termenung
mari gembira dan bersenandung (2x)

Putus asmara pedih ku rasa
Bermain cinta ku cuba jua
patah hati tak membuat menjadi cerah
biarlah hanyut badan ke laut
asal sebiduk dengan si dia
dalam badai asmara cinta

tak perlu engkau ambilkan pisau
tak perlu aku belah dadamu
kerana aku telah tahu isi hatimu
mata bertemu saling memandang
dalam hati rasa bergoncang
karna cinta jua nan datang

repeat c/o (2x)

LOVE IS NICE THING.. BUT WONT LASTING.. THAT FOR SURE..

I was now, keep on praying for the best. The memory of love story remains live.. Living with the past and try to be the best might make ur life more cheerful..